Our weekend event just ended today. I experienced innumerable feelings and emotions.
Every time we get together in our meetings, Bernie, Jim, and Chuck take us to the best places we can go in ourselves and with each other. To me they are like these great conductors and we are the orchestra, they mark the time and signals how we need to play, and together we create a fantastic symphony, our immortal life together.
On Friday night, Bernie said she wanted to talk about sex, and for the first time in a long time I felt excited about that subject. I didn’t feel any self pressure, I didn’t have to pretend, perform or show something I am not in reference to sex and relationship, (I mean in love relationship), hallelujah! . So I enjoyed everything that happened this weekend, it doesn’t mean I wasn’t absolutely honest with myself. The past doesn’t matter, today, I am a new human being and my intention is to keep going for a newness of my person, not just in sex and intimacy but in every aspect of my life.
Ever since I was touched during the Summer Event I’ve been smashing all of my images, specially the ones about myself , they are very destructive, so I feel very definitive about getting rid of them.
I am experiencing a freshness of my person, and I like it a lot. I am becoming a different individual, I love it, it feels so good, I wake up in the morning and I say to myself YES, I am on the right track with the right people.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Our two week break
We're at the end of a two week break from our weekly events and I have had a wonderful few weeks. I am ending the female bitch who is obssessed with her 'relationship' with a man. I am focusing sharper than ever before on my writing skills in order to speed up production of the work I do and the quality of it too, so that my customers will continue to return over and over again for my services and recommend me to others needing professional writing assistance.
Being without you all in our meetings has not been strange, as it used to be. This time, I feel an organic experiencing of having you with me anyhow. That joy of being human flesh that never dies no matter what has occured between us, I'm here and I know I am.
I'm excited about this change. In the past, I used to get slightly depressed without our events, and fall back into overthinking and repeating the same old tapes in my head. This time, I'm alive and working, I call people and meet with you, we go out for a while, we laugh and talk about being endless, we support one another to live free of all death, we even buy one another dinner or a movie ticket!
My world is mine to create and I'm here to change for you, right before your eyes, to do what I must do to overcome issues that arise, health wise, emotion wise and behavior wise.
Monday night is just a few hours away, and we'll be together again with Bernie and Jim. I visited Chuck today with Greta, and saw Yuri there, and Jeanette and Dessie, and Ana and Oma called on Chuck's cell phone, and together we just bathed his flesh, and each others.
His cheeks were rather rosey, and we chatted and I cried a little bit and then he asked to be quiet for a few minutes, and then we talked some more and that's how it goes. We just keep each other thrilled and excited, feeling adored and needed.
I can't thank you all enough, knowing I will be with you again Monday, smiling and shining, skin to skin. We'll be jumping and speaking things we've never said before, and our hearts will burst with life and with one another's presence. Your bodies are my heaven, I have every reason to keep living and prospering and ending all the crap that formed me until now.
See you then.
Being without you all in our meetings has not been strange, as it used to be. This time, I feel an organic experiencing of having you with me anyhow. That joy of being human flesh that never dies no matter what has occured between us, I'm here and I know I am.
I'm excited about this change. In the past, I used to get slightly depressed without our events, and fall back into overthinking and repeating the same old tapes in my head. This time, I'm alive and working, I call people and meet with you, we go out for a while, we laugh and talk about being endless, we support one another to live free of all death, we even buy one another dinner or a movie ticket!
My world is mine to create and I'm here to change for you, right before your eyes, to do what I must do to overcome issues that arise, health wise, emotion wise and behavior wise.
Monday night is just a few hours away, and we'll be together again with Bernie and Jim. I visited Chuck today with Greta, and saw Yuri there, and Jeanette and Dessie, and Ana and Oma called on Chuck's cell phone, and together we just bathed his flesh, and each others.
His cheeks were rather rosey, and we chatted and I cried a little bit and then he asked to be quiet for a few minutes, and then we talked some more and that's how it goes. We just keep each other thrilled and excited, feeling adored and needed.
I can't thank you all enough, knowing I will be with you again Monday, smiling and shining, skin to skin. We'll be jumping and speaking things we've never said before, and our hearts will burst with life and with one another's presence. Your bodies are my heaven, I have every reason to keep living and prospering and ending all the crap that formed me until now.
See you then.
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