And so here I am….stretching, exercising and yes, you might say in some way following the guidance of a “physical” therapist. The term is very appropriate for the three of whom I speak…Bernie, Jim and Chuck. I clearly see this aspect in them.
I am stretching my vocal cords, exercising my mind and moving my body in an entirely new way. I acknowledge that to complete physical immortality I must have a ”full range of motion”. There can be no encumbrances, no hindrances, and no limitations. Not only must my body be in top working condition, but the expression of who I am must also be fully alive. There is no freedom in lacking the ability to say everything…to speak about my life without hesitation…without fear of consequence. Even the very opportunity to say what I am feeling in the moment cannot be suppressed. I must not allow suppression to have its deadly grip on me; so I break free in unlimited movement. And I feel that we owe it to each other as physically immortal people to move openly. What kind of life am I living if I cannot fully express myself? Whose life am I living? It can’t be my own. It would have to be in the image of something…or someone. Nothing is greater for me than to have the freedom of full range of motion. This is who I am. Is this who you are?
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Monday, May 10, 2010
Awakening Physical Immortality
“Awakening Physical Immortality”…why that name? The reason, perhaps not an obvious choice for many, would be that it completely describes me. Not only where I am today...the next moment…tomorrow…next week…but also, where I have been. And what does physical immortality mean, anyway? The physical body can live forever? Yes. Never dying? Yes.
So how does one awaken to physical immortality? Do you just get out of bed one morning, drag yourself clumsily to the bathroom to pee and have an epiphany? Wow…I am physically immortal! Not likely. Yet there does exist a feeling of something great inside you. This feeling over time through many experiences becomes clearer and greater in your body. Discovering the undiscoverable is a lost cause to many, but not to you. The effort is not in vain. The drive, the conviction, the passion to never give up pushes you forward. So on that ONE day when you meet that ONE person (for me, Charles Brown) who declares “death will not overtake me”, in an instant the discovery is made. The realization of you….who you are…and your purpose happens. Like a volcano erupting with great force; no longer able to control the stirring in its belly, the lid is blown off. Uncontrollably, an aliveness gushes from your depths. And the secret language of the body begins to reveal itself to you; a mystery hidden for centuries in the ancient tombs. With a quantum leap, you are transported away from a world permeated with death, strangled with despair and swallowed up in darkness. You AWAKEN from the slumber of your own body.
In that magical second the momentum begins. My first desire is to move to be with those who share the same passion. And don’t let anyone kid you. Environment IS everything! Hang out with happy people…experience happiness. Hang out with sad people…see how happy you remain. Hang out with the living and see how alive you become! This is physical immortality. You can never be too alive….never too much! And the awakening is forever, never ending, always more….endless…like me.
So how does one awaken to physical immortality? Do you just get out of bed one morning, drag yourself clumsily to the bathroom to pee and have an epiphany? Wow…I am physically immortal! Not likely. Yet there does exist a feeling of something great inside you. This feeling over time through many experiences becomes clearer and greater in your body. Discovering the undiscoverable is a lost cause to many, but not to you. The effort is not in vain. The drive, the conviction, the passion to never give up pushes you forward. So on that ONE day when you meet that ONE person (for me, Charles Brown) who declares “death will not overtake me”, in an instant the discovery is made. The realization of you….who you are…and your purpose happens. Like a volcano erupting with great force; no longer able to control the stirring in its belly, the lid is blown off. Uncontrollably, an aliveness gushes from your depths. And the secret language of the body begins to reveal itself to you; a mystery hidden for centuries in the ancient tombs. With a quantum leap, you are transported away from a world permeated with death, strangled with despair and swallowed up in darkness. You AWAKEN from the slumber of your own body.
In that magical second the momentum begins. My first desire is to move to be with those who share the same passion. And don’t let anyone kid you. Environment IS everything! Hang out with happy people…experience happiness. Hang out with sad people…see how happy you remain. Hang out with the living and see how alive you become! This is physical immortality. You can never be too alive….never too much! And the awakening is forever, never ending, always more….endless…like me.
Saturday, March 27, 2010
I am Physical Immortality
Yesterday afternoon as I was driving home to rest and then get ready for our nightly meeting event, I was thinking of all the week events and how busy I had been. I had to deal with many things this week around my business and I just felt that all that time spent with customers and workers and vendors, etc. was not my focus, not at all. My focus is my physical body, and then, I started feeling my body, its design and its responses. The physical body is so noble and graceful. I have a feeling of it that is immense. Jim Strole always says, "...in the right environment anybody can prosper and change whatever needs to be changed..." That is so true! I have been lately focusing in my physical body in a very intense way, and the results are amazing. It thrills me to feel who I am, the real Ana.
It all comes from the body and the mind, the brain, are part of the physical body. I am letting the intelligence of my whole body speak and I am listening to it. The body needs to be fed well, have clean thoughts, feel other physical immortal bodies as your own, be so flexible and open, melt into others... The more I give to my body what I know is right, the clearer its sound, the better I hear it, the more free I am. This is my freedom, I am Physical Immortality. I free myself breaking through my own physical body. My dearest Bernie always tells us "It is all about the body". Yes Bernie, yes world... I am Physical Immortality, a living proof of a deathless body!
It all comes from the body and the mind, the brain, are part of the physical body. I am letting the intelligence of my whole body speak and I am listening to it. The body needs to be fed well, have clean thoughts, feel other physical immortal bodies as your own, be so flexible and open, melt into others... The more I give to my body what I know is right, the clearer its sound, the better I hear it, the more free I am. This is my freedom, I am Physical Immortality. I free myself breaking through my own physical body. My dearest Bernie always tells us "It is all about the body". Yes Bernie, yes world... I am Physical Immortality, a living proof of a deathless body!
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Physical Immortality Means ending Duality
Being dual, split, of two minds means the flesh is in a state of unrest. Thinking this then that. Liking yourself one minute, disliking something about yourself the next. Fulminating over what he or she did or said. Wondering how to protect yourself next time. How will you do it differently next time to make sure you've got the upper hand, the control? Tossing and turning in bed at night, or during the day, at work, fully clothed with that smile plastered to your face.
Who's right and who's wrong in every situation and how do I convince myself that I'm right, every time?
Yesterday, I ended all that for myself. Being physically immortal means that I am able to receive a touch, a comment, a deep conversation from another person who has noticed something about myself that is no longer complimentary to my staying alive forever. Being open to that touch, that feeling and expression to me from another person allows my body to expand. It's like I feel the actual skin spread out, giving me more room to live, to move, to feel and be felt. Dimitri, one of the men who are part of my immortal life, spoke to me a few weeks back about wanting me to stop rejecting myself. He told me I had been told this many times, and he felt it was time that I actually did something about it. It's serious, he said. This is the kind of thing that kills people and he felt, I could die along with this habit I had. I felt his concern and I thanked him. I felt there was something in it but it wasn't until yesterday, driving around, and finally hearing my mind and what I was doing to myself with the automatic thinking that goes on, that I shouted "NO!" As soon as I stopped the angry, self defeating, self-deprecating monologue, I felt lighter, a sense of relief. That monologue disappeared and that's when I saw that it was merely a habit. A way of life I had carried with me from the day I was able to self-reflect, whenever that age was for me. Questioning everything said to me, wondering if praise was real, if criticism would ever end, if I was going to become 'right' some day, instead of always 'wrong'.
Well now, I am taking what Bernie said at our last event, about finally valuing herself, seeing how valuable she really is, the impact she has on others, taking that in and accepting it, living it, having a rest with herself. It's the same for all of us. We must know our value, and I am experiencing mine now.
My intention is to outlive death and all its slimey, underhanded ways. I do this with you. You speak to me and wake me up. You adore me. You make changes you need to make. You stop me in my tracks and lighten up the world with how simple living really is. I'm so happy tonight. I have ended duality and I can relax and feel a completeness I have never felt before.
We've been speaking about how important it is to fuse together, to feel one another as our selves. To have such an awareness of one another and a passion for each other. To trust and be relaxed and be there when the crucial times are calling. Well, I feel this ending of duality has paved my way to fusion with all of you. The more the word is spoken, the more organically we respond and change begins to reformulate our bodies, reactions, words, sense of each other. Now that I am whole and not split, I am free to move towards and into you, to give myself in ways I never have, to show you the way through the valley of death, not just expect you to show me.
What a supreme life. What a classy, interesting, smart, attractive, warm, welcoming, endlessly entertaining body of people we are.
Who's right and who's wrong in every situation and how do I convince myself that I'm right, every time?
Yesterday, I ended all that for myself. Being physically immortal means that I am able to receive a touch, a comment, a deep conversation from another person who has noticed something about myself that is no longer complimentary to my staying alive forever. Being open to that touch, that feeling and expression to me from another person allows my body to expand. It's like I feel the actual skin spread out, giving me more room to live, to move, to feel and be felt. Dimitri, one of the men who are part of my immortal life, spoke to me a few weeks back about wanting me to stop rejecting myself. He told me I had been told this many times, and he felt it was time that I actually did something about it. It's serious, he said. This is the kind of thing that kills people and he felt, I could die along with this habit I had. I felt his concern and I thanked him. I felt there was something in it but it wasn't until yesterday, driving around, and finally hearing my mind and what I was doing to myself with the automatic thinking that goes on, that I shouted "NO!" As soon as I stopped the angry, self defeating, self-deprecating monologue, I felt lighter, a sense of relief. That monologue disappeared and that's when I saw that it was merely a habit. A way of life I had carried with me from the day I was able to self-reflect, whenever that age was for me. Questioning everything said to me, wondering if praise was real, if criticism would ever end, if I was going to become 'right' some day, instead of always 'wrong'.
Well now, I am taking what Bernie said at our last event, about finally valuing herself, seeing how valuable she really is, the impact she has on others, taking that in and accepting it, living it, having a rest with herself. It's the same for all of us. We must know our value, and I am experiencing mine now.
My intention is to outlive death and all its slimey, underhanded ways. I do this with you. You speak to me and wake me up. You adore me. You make changes you need to make. You stop me in my tracks and lighten up the world with how simple living really is. I'm so happy tonight. I have ended duality and I can relax and feel a completeness I have never felt before.
We've been speaking about how important it is to fuse together, to feel one another as our selves. To have such an awareness of one another and a passion for each other. To trust and be relaxed and be there when the crucial times are calling. Well, I feel this ending of duality has paved my way to fusion with all of you. The more the word is spoken, the more organically we respond and change begins to reformulate our bodies, reactions, words, sense of each other. Now that I am whole and not split, I am free to move towards and into you, to give myself in ways I never have, to show you the way through the valley of death, not just expect you to show me.
What a supreme life. What a classy, interesting, smart, attractive, warm, welcoming, endlessly entertaining body of people we are.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
I Am Proud
Have you ever been so extremely proud of those around you? I have…I am. “You are known by the company you keep,” is the old cliché standard many hold as true. Without a doubt, I want to be known by the company I keep. I marvel at the brilliance of those around me. And I am deeply touched by the depths to which they are willing to travel into their own inner darkness to have life. A darkness which if not enlightened ultimately results in death. And so, I have the privilege to share in an experiencing of people on a level much greater than the shallow nonsense most shares. And I am comforted by the solidity of our keeping of one another. I know with every individual experience comes the collective experience. No one is alone with us….even when they may think so. I am proud of us. I am proud of myself. I am proud to be physically immortal.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Physical Immortality is Radical
Last night we had a meeting here in Scottsdale, AZ which was radical; more radical than what death is. There is no way a physical body can live without being taken care of, nurtured, and constantly being released from old baggage.
We always say that, "we are our bodies." That is a huge statement, think about it. You are your body, your physical body. Are you taking care of it?, are you giving it enough fuel?, are you constantly getting rid of any toxic waste? Think about it, you are your lungs, you are your heart, you are your kidneys. To really give and focus in our own physical bodies is being in total integrity. The real joy comes when there are no more splits between you and your body. You are one with your physical body.
I am so touched by this. I used to have a split within me, there was me and there was my body somewhere... Obesity, victimization, dysfunctional past lives, where is the physical body in those situations? We are so used to being distracted by imaginary friends, by the spiritual life, by the thousands of mental scenarios we constantly create, and mainly, we are so distracted by our inner war. See, the physical body is the most potent design there has ever been and many potent physical bodies together is atomic. It is not an external force, call it as you wish, it is the physical body. That is why the split and the separation.
I have experienced an intimacy with another physical immortal person where we can wipe out death codes that have been registered in our bodies. The physical bodies of each of us are connected, we speak the same language, and so, we step onto the physical dimension. That is the real sacredness.
So, I am radically taking care of my physical body, it is my treasure as all the other physical immortals bodies who are here with me, they are all my treasures!
We always say that, "we are our bodies." That is a huge statement, think about it. You are your body, your physical body. Are you taking care of it?, are you giving it enough fuel?, are you constantly getting rid of any toxic waste? Think about it, you are your lungs, you are your heart, you are your kidneys. To really give and focus in our own physical bodies is being in total integrity. The real joy comes when there are no more splits between you and your body. You are one with your physical body.
I am so touched by this. I used to have a split within me, there was me and there was my body somewhere... Obesity, victimization, dysfunctional past lives, where is the physical body in those situations? We are so used to being distracted by imaginary friends, by the spiritual life, by the thousands of mental scenarios we constantly create, and mainly, we are so distracted by our inner war. See, the physical body is the most potent design there has ever been and many potent physical bodies together is atomic. It is not an external force, call it as you wish, it is the physical body. That is why the split and the separation.
I have experienced an intimacy with another physical immortal person where we can wipe out death codes that have been registered in our bodies. The physical bodies of each of us are connected, we speak the same language, and so, we step onto the physical dimension. That is the real sacredness.
So, I am radically taking care of my physical body, it is my treasure as all the other physical immortals bodies who are here with me, they are all my treasures!
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
2010 the year of Physical Immortality
This is our year, our hour upon hour of celebrating being alive together. The Winter event has been and gone, we went everywhere together, deep into our psyches and our bodies. We traveled all over this world, we turned every culture upside down with our clarity and purpose. Death fled as it always does and always will when we are together, exploring, accepting change, understanding what it takes, moving fast, feeling what we have to feel without sentimentality. I cannot feel sorry for myself, but I must feel what comes to the surface. All my tears all my joy, the heightened pleasure of being together every Monday and Friday evening.
Thank you all so much for being here with me, meeting and making that commitment to our life together. It takes guts, money, consistent movement, a capacity for unending pleasure, an ability to face the uncomfortable hold death has had on our bodies and tearing it away, in one quick swoop. Responding to Bernie and Jim and Chuck as they whoosh through our cells, like a beautiful breeze, a powerful storm, a quiet ocean of unending, gentle waves.
Thank you all so much for being here with me, meeting and making that commitment to our life together. It takes guts, money, consistent movement, a capacity for unending pleasure, an ability to face the uncomfortable hold death has had on our bodies and tearing it away, in one quick swoop. Responding to Bernie and Jim and Chuck as they whoosh through our cells, like a beautiful breeze, a powerful storm, a quiet ocean of unending, gentle waves.
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